Ever since I really wanted to join a marathon event, but the problem is I have no idea where to start, I’ve been looking for sites in the web for race schedules, clubs or anything that can kick start my marathon career (**,) but I wasn’t able to look for a good site. My friend’s bf which also runs sent me a message telling me to check out takbo.ph which he also just discovered. So I checked out the site and to my eyes delight the site was loaded with info on schedule races for the coming months and you can also download the registration form straight into their site.
I was so happy and excited because I’ve got what I was wishing for, and guess what? … I’ve signed up for 4 races this month (**,) literally that's how excited I am. I’ll be running on the 11th, 18th, 19th and 26th of October and all of them are 10k runs, yes that’s right 10k and to think that it’ll be my first race instead of trying first the 5k I jumped to 10k. Good luck to me! But as the saying goes “No Pain No Gain” and I love challenging myself so bahala na si batman.. I run daily on an average of 3km per day at a steady phase so what’s another 7k right? (**,) hahaha!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I’m back
I’m done mourning over my father’s death… but did I really grieve over his death? I was always out every weekends enjoying what’s life to offer me. I was on a g’mik spree, my mom never said anything about it maybe because we’re not really open, we’re not the typical type of family who sit over dinner and talk about anything or everything that happened thru the day but I have no regrets or whatsoever and if I’m given the chance to live my life again and to be able to choose a perfect family, I will never think twice of choosing what I have right now to be with them over and over. Well everybody has their differences maybe I’m just the type of person who keeps his pains inside, trying to keep everything for himself and thinking always of the good side of life as a diversion to absolute loneliness.
So much for that…I’m glad I’m back to blogg’n again, I’ve been stubborn during the past months but now I’m so back and I found a new sport a hobby that doesn’t require you to be taller, to be physically fit, and to be with a team. All you need is a good pair of shoes. I’m talking about RUNNING, probably for some it’s a boring sport but running gives me that natural high a sense of fulfillment that I am becoming better, faster and stronger. Maybe you should try running, or anything that you haven’t tried yet, something new something that will jumpstart your life back to the right track.
So much for that…I’m glad I’m back to blogg’n again, I’ve been stubborn during the past months but now I’m so back and I found a new sport a hobby that doesn’t require you to be taller, to be physically fit, and to be with a team. All you need is a good pair of shoes. I’m talking about RUNNING, probably for some it’s a boring sport but running gives me that natural high a sense of fulfillment that I am becoming better, faster and stronger. Maybe you should try running, or anything that you haven’t tried yet, something new something that will jumpstart your life back to the right track.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
My Dad (from a cousin's point of view)
Got this from my cousin's blog describing what my dad is all about...
uncle omeng, as i described him to a friend last night, was "sobrang funny and mabait". the best thing i liked about him was his laidback view about life. he took everything with a grain of salt: he was not a worrier. he refused to worry and just took life one day at a time. he was very funny. did i already say that?
maybe what i really mean to say is that he was the source of joy in our lives. it was a joy seeing him. i remember i hugged him when we had that photo taken. i remember talking to him for a long time outside of the restaurant where cheska had her reception after baptism. i remember teasing him before i left na hindi pa n'ya ko na-shopping. i remember him saying sorry and me saying that's ok uncle, naglalambing lang ako.
I always remember my dad being the joker of the Espadilla clan, always trying to make everybody laugh till tears starts comming out from thier eyes. His an optimist, he stands by his moto of "Don't worry be happy" his a Tito, Vic and Joey fanatic no wonder all his punch line is somehow the same with the trio.
That's one of the many aspects I got, we got from our dad all 3 us got his genes. If your going to rank us whoes the one that resembles my dad the most that would be my youngest brother. My dad left him when he was 5 years old and I seem to wonder how did he grow up like my dad... funny, a little heard headed, got the angst in him, freindly (he got ton's of it), hardcore drinker the way he moves, the way he talks, he also got my father's fashion of going out the streets halfnaked (typical tambay sa kanto) that's why both of them are well tanned.
uncle omeng, as i described him to a friend last night, was "sobrang funny and mabait". the best thing i liked about him was his laidback view about life. he took everything with a grain of salt: he was not a worrier. he refused to worry and just took life one day at a time. he was very funny. did i already say that?
maybe what i really mean to say is that he was the source of joy in our lives. it was a joy seeing him. i remember i hugged him when we had that photo taken. i remember talking to him for a long time outside of the restaurant where cheska had her reception after baptism. i remember teasing him before i left na hindi pa n'ya ko na-shopping. i remember him saying sorry and me saying that's ok uncle, naglalambing lang ako.
I always remember my dad being the joker of the Espadilla clan, always trying to make everybody laugh till tears starts comming out from thier eyes. His an optimist, he stands by his moto of "Don't worry be happy" his a Tito, Vic and Joey fanatic no wonder all his punch line is somehow the same with the trio.
That's one of the many aspects I got, we got from our dad all 3 us got his genes. If your going to rank us whoes the one that resembles my dad the most that would be my youngest brother. My dad left him when he was 5 years old and I seem to wonder how did he grow up like my dad... funny, a little heard headed, got the angst in him, freindly (he got ton's of it), hardcore drinker the way he moves, the way he talks, he also got my father's fashion of going out the streets halfnaked (typical tambay sa kanto) that's why both of them are well tanned.
Friday, June 20, 2008
THE GREATEST DAD IN THE WORLD
What does it take to be a father?
Dedication? Commitment? Love? Hmmmm…
I’ll tell you about the greatest dad in the world and that would be my dad, of course you are going to argue about that and say your dad is #1, well we all have our bets... but this is my moment, this is my blog go create one for your main man, your go-to-guy… your hero.I haven’t seen my dad for 14 years, he’s in the states working his butt out to fulfill his dream of giving us a better life. 14 years and he didn’t pay us a visit? To answer your question, he’s an illegal alien (TNT it’s what they normally call it). It’s the only way, that’s his best option at that time there’s many consequences at stake, and it turn out to be a great decision. A decision that takes a lot of balls, he made a sacrifice of leaving his family in order for it to stay as a family.
A friend once told me if he’s on that position he would never do that he’ll rather see his family go thru the hardship rather than to leave. I respect his opinion, but I have to ask him if it’s ok for him to see his family hungry? The nightly fights of you and your wife arguing about money, you having a mediocre pay check? Diminishing friends because you couldn’t pay the money you borrowed from them. And your children asking you why can’t we have these and that, what’s the difference between a public and a private school? Eventually, you’ll end up looking back at the lost opportunity.
We are not rich, if it wasn’t for my dad’s sacrifice I would be a different person from today, probably I’m a loser right now. He was able to give us life and that’s what I like about him he never thinks of himself his not selfish. All of us we’re able to study on a private school went to college and got a degree. He provided us everything toys, expensive basketball shoes, clothes, gadgets, my car. He never said no to us, never. Everything our heart’s desire, he’s like a Genie.Another aspect of my father is him being faithful to us especially to my mom, He can have a second family there but he remains faithful to us. 14 years of dedication to your family that’s miles away from you. That’s what you call love.
One thing about my father is he was able to teach us is respect, we we’re never scared of him but we respect him a lot. Every time my mom tells him about us, arguing with one another, making stupid mistake, he will talk to us and dissect to every little details of the mistakes we made. We grow up without a father but I’m proud to say we end up being responsible. Me and my second brother got our degrees the youngest will have his soon. We never got into big troubles and we never gave our parents heartaches. Well, I have to give credit to the greatest mom on this world too for that, and that would be my mom.
Lessons I've learned from my dad…
“Walang taong bobo, tamad lang”
“Walang lalakeng umiiyak”
“Don’t worry be happy”
“Make sacrifices, work hard and love your family”
“Lahat ng bagay napagaaralan”
“Kung sila na kaya, ikaw pa!”
“Gumamit ka ng condom” – heheh ;)
MY DAD IS THE GREATEST, I WILL NOT TRADE HIM FOR THE WORLD!!!
I LOVE YOU PAPA OMENG!
I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
I’LL SEE YOU IN HEAVEN…
Dedication? Commitment? Love? Hmmmm…
I’ll tell you about the greatest dad in the world and that would be my dad, of course you are going to argue about that and say your dad is #1, well we all have our bets... but this is my moment, this is my blog go create one for your main man, your go-to-guy… your hero.I haven’t seen my dad for 14 years, he’s in the states working his butt out to fulfill his dream of giving us a better life. 14 years and he didn’t pay us a visit? To answer your question, he’s an illegal alien (TNT it’s what they normally call it). It’s the only way, that’s his best option at that time there’s many consequences at stake, and it turn out to be a great decision. A decision that takes a lot of balls, he made a sacrifice of leaving his family in order for it to stay as a family.
A friend once told me if he’s on that position he would never do that he’ll rather see his family go thru the hardship rather than to leave. I respect his opinion, but I have to ask him if it’s ok for him to see his family hungry? The nightly fights of you and your wife arguing about money, you having a mediocre pay check? Diminishing friends because you couldn’t pay the money you borrowed from them. And your children asking you why can’t we have these and that, what’s the difference between a public and a private school? Eventually, you’ll end up looking back at the lost opportunity.
We are not rich, if it wasn’t for my dad’s sacrifice I would be a different person from today, probably I’m a loser right now. He was able to give us life and that’s what I like about him he never thinks of himself his not selfish. All of us we’re able to study on a private school went to college and got a degree. He provided us everything toys, expensive basketball shoes, clothes, gadgets, my car. He never said no to us, never. Everything our heart’s desire, he’s like a Genie.Another aspect of my father is him being faithful to us especially to my mom, He can have a second family there but he remains faithful to us. 14 years of dedication to your family that’s miles away from you. That’s what you call love.
One thing about my father is he was able to teach us is respect, we we’re never scared of him but we respect him a lot. Every time my mom tells him about us, arguing with one another, making stupid mistake, he will talk to us and dissect to every little details of the mistakes we made. We grow up without a father but I’m proud to say we end up being responsible. Me and my second brother got our degrees the youngest will have his soon. We never got into big troubles and we never gave our parents heartaches. Well, I have to give credit to the greatest mom on this world too for that, and that would be my mom.
Lessons I've learned from my dad…
“Walang taong bobo, tamad lang”
“Walang lalakeng umiiyak”
“Don’t worry be happy”
“Make sacrifices, work hard and love your family”
“Lahat ng bagay napagaaralan”
“Kung sila na kaya, ikaw pa!”
“Gumamit ka ng condom” – heheh ;)
MY DAD IS THE GREATEST, I WILL NOT TRADE HIM FOR THE WORLD!!!
I LOVE YOU PAPA OMENG!
I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
I’LL SEE YOU IN HEAVEN…
A LETTER TO PAPA
Dear Papa,
Kamusta ka na? Kaw ha nag give up ka kagad, sana lumaban ka pa baka binigyan pa tayo ni Lord ng isa pang chance. Nagtatampo ako syo kasi iniwan mo na kami, hindi ka manlang nagpaalam sa amin, hindi ko manlang nasabi syo kung gaano kita kamahal, ska ung mga plano ko syo pag nagkita tyo wala na lahat. Sayang papa hindi mo manlang nakita ung mga apo mo puro babae, malamang sobrang spoiled sa iyo yun kung nagkataon. Papa, wala ng mag bibigay sa akin ng advice alam mo naman hindi ako nag oopen up kay mama eh. Papa miss na miss na kita, wala na kaming matatangap na overseas call from you every time na may occasion. Wala narin mga request, wala na kming go-to-guy. Hindi mo manlang ako nabigyan ng tips kung pano tumayo bilang head of the family, pero I’ll do my best I’ll see to it na everything will be in order here the way you want it to be. Ako na bahala sa mga kapatid ko sa ka kay mama alagaan ko silang mabuti. Papa hindi parin ako makapaniwala na wala ka na talaga. Hintayin mo nlang kami dyan sa langit ha. I Love you PAPA!
Love,
JR
Kamusta ka na? Kaw ha nag give up ka kagad, sana lumaban ka pa baka binigyan pa tayo ni Lord ng isa pang chance. Nagtatampo ako syo kasi iniwan mo na kami, hindi ka manlang nagpaalam sa amin, hindi ko manlang nasabi syo kung gaano kita kamahal, ska ung mga plano ko syo pag nagkita tyo wala na lahat. Sayang papa hindi mo manlang nakita ung mga apo mo puro babae, malamang sobrang spoiled sa iyo yun kung nagkataon. Papa, wala ng mag bibigay sa akin ng advice alam mo naman hindi ako nag oopen up kay mama eh. Papa miss na miss na kita, wala na kaming matatangap na overseas call from you every time na may occasion. Wala narin mga request, wala na kming go-to-guy. Hindi mo manlang ako nabigyan ng tips kung pano tumayo bilang head of the family, pero I’ll do my best I’ll see to it na everything will be in order here the way you want it to be. Ako na bahala sa mga kapatid ko sa ka kay mama alagaan ko silang mabuti. Papa hindi parin ako makapaniwala na wala ka na talaga. Hintayin mo nlang kami dyan sa langit ha. I Love you PAPA!
Love,
JR
A PRAYER
Dear Lord,
Why is it so soon? Why does it have to be now? Why My Lord? You never even give me the chance to say goodbye to him. Every time I pray to you, I always ask you to take care of him to keep my family healthy and away from harm, and if one of us has to go… let it be me. Lord, sana ako nlang kinuha nyo. I have been with my mom and my two brothers for 25 years and with my dad for 11 years. My dad has been deprived of seeing his family grow, being with them in times we needed a father most. My two brothers never got that experience especially the youngest one. Lord sana hindi nyo muna siya kinuha, sana binigyan nyo pa po kmi ng chance na magkita ulit at makasama sya kahit isang buong araw lang. Lord bakit? Ang dami kong pangarap sa papa ko, sabi ko pag nagkita kami ililibre ko sya, mag iinuman kami, mag bobonding kami, ibibili ko sya ng bahay, susuklian ko lahat ng ginawa nya para sa amin pero kinuha mo sya agad, ngayon… paano ko na magagawa yun? My dad has been good to us, he made sacrifices and all I’m praying for ever since is one day he’ll be with us again, to play with her 2 grand children, to see the success of his hardwork and sacrifices. Lord, for 14 years my father is so lonely and all he ever wanted is to be with us again but you didn’t allowed it, you never made it happen even just for a day. I want to be angry with you, but I know its wrong… You have your reason, and sometimes, most of the time we just can’t understand your reason.
Lord kayo na bahala sa papa ko, forgive the sins that he made, Maybe both of you are talking right now him asking you why did you get him so early, you have your reason Lord. Please bless him, I’m praying for you right now to forgive the sins that he made and bring him to heaven with You because that’s the only thing I’m looking to right now, to be with my father again in your Kingdom.Thank you Lord!
Why is it so soon? Why does it have to be now? Why My Lord? You never even give me the chance to say goodbye to him. Every time I pray to you, I always ask you to take care of him to keep my family healthy and away from harm, and if one of us has to go… let it be me. Lord, sana ako nlang kinuha nyo. I have been with my mom and my two brothers for 25 years and with my dad for 11 years. My dad has been deprived of seeing his family grow, being with them in times we needed a father most. My two brothers never got that experience especially the youngest one. Lord sana hindi nyo muna siya kinuha, sana binigyan nyo pa po kmi ng chance na magkita ulit at makasama sya kahit isang buong araw lang. Lord bakit? Ang dami kong pangarap sa papa ko, sabi ko pag nagkita kami ililibre ko sya, mag iinuman kami, mag bobonding kami, ibibili ko sya ng bahay, susuklian ko lahat ng ginawa nya para sa amin pero kinuha mo sya agad, ngayon… paano ko na magagawa yun? My dad has been good to us, he made sacrifices and all I’m praying for ever since is one day he’ll be with us again, to play with her 2 grand children, to see the success of his hardwork and sacrifices. Lord, for 14 years my father is so lonely and all he ever wanted is to be with us again but you didn’t allowed it, you never made it happen even just for a day. I want to be angry with you, but I know its wrong… You have your reason, and sometimes, most of the time we just can’t understand your reason.
Lord kayo na bahala sa papa ko, forgive the sins that he made, Maybe both of you are talking right now him asking you why did you get him so early, you have your reason Lord. Please bless him, I’m praying for you right now to forgive the sins that he made and bring him to heaven with You because that’s the only thing I’m looking to right now, to be with my father again in your Kingdom.Thank you Lord!
THE NEWS
June 17, 2008 midnight, I was on my way to meet a friend when suddenly I received a call from my tito, just by the sound of him I can feel there’s something wrong, he told me that he was trying to contact my mom but she was not answering, my tito is hesitant to break the news “telling me wag akong mabibigla at magpakatatag ako” just by that phrase I knew already that it’s about my dad, he wasn’t able to tell me directly and he passed it to my tita, my tita started crying and told me the wala ni si… and I started crying, it happened so fast, I wasn’t prepared I didn’t expect it to happen. I was the first one to know in the family. After that, I called my mom right away she’s at the hospital and I asked her if visitors are still allowed to go inside, she don’t want me to come anymore she told me that my dad had a heart attack and pray for him that’s all she knows. The line wasn’t clear so I decided to hang up and go to the hospital. I was driving, crying, talking to myself, to God and to my papa. When I arrived at the hospital I saw my mom crying hard talking to someone at the phone, my youngest brother was there he’s eyes full of tears I started crying again, all of us. My 2nd brother was the last one to know. That night of 061708 was the saddest day of my life.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
I'm Back!
We’ll it’s been a long time since I’ve updated my blog, I’ve been busy working on “Project Sexy Boy”. So far it’s been doing well from 150 last month I’m on 140 now and the result is starting to show. I’m now a size 30 from a high of 34, I can now wear fit clothes and recently hearing praises from my colleagues like “Ang payat mo nah!” and it felt real GOOD. I’m gaining my confidence back and I love it. Well I’m still half way to 120 but I’m slowly getting there. I’m not on a hurry anyway.
It’s summer and it’s time to hit the beach. My friends and I got it all planned up for half of this season, unfortunately the downside of it is I’m going to get a tan which I really don’t like. Anyways here’s our schedule:
It’s summer and it’s time to hit the beach. My friends and I got it all planned up for half of this season, unfortunately the downside of it is I’m going to get a tan which I really don’t like. Anyways here’s our schedule:
- April 26 - Canyon Cove - Batangas
- May 3-4 - Puerto Galera - Mindoro
- May 24-26 - La Union (We'll try Surfing)
I'll be sharing our photos so don't worry... ;)
Thursday, March 6, 2008
PROJECT SEXY BOY
I love watching wrestling, when I was a kid I used to believed that those wrestlers are for real. Everybody was telling me that it's scripted but I couldn’t believe it back then all those slam banging, bone crushing action looks real to me. I just realize it when I step into high school I observed that all their moves are timed and there was this T.V. show that exposed every shit about wrestling. Though I believed every fan out there knows wrestling is fake they still watches it because it so entertaining they even called it the soap opera for Men. And I prefer watching it over the real one, I find the sport boring and lame and I wish it would be replace by Mix Martial Arts Fighting in the Olympics that would be a lot of fun to watch. Back to wrestling, I was a fan of Stone Cold, The Rock, X-pac and Shawn Michaels. All superstars have their code names and famous lines from The Rock's "Do you smell what the Rock is cookin" to DX "Suck it" Shawn Michael's A.K.A Heart Break Kid entrance theme song "Sexy Boy" is my favorite. The song goes like this "I'm not your Boy Toy... I'm just a Sexy Boy"... Sexyyy Boooooy.. haha.. So once I reach my goal of 120 lbs. I'll be having a moniker of "Sexy Boy" hahah!
From 153 lbs. last month, I'm now at 150 Lbs. I was really disappointed on the result last month just 3 lbs., I was aiming for 8 lbs., 5 lbs. short. Exercise Program was fine, but my diet is at fault it's really hard to turn down a good food specially free ones but I'm cutting my portion and eventually I'll be eating less than I should. I'm targeting 140lbs. this month. How I wish!!!
From 153 lbs. last month, I'm now at 150 Lbs. I was really disappointed on the result last month just 3 lbs., I was aiming for 8 lbs., 5 lbs. short. Exercise Program was fine, but my diet is at fault it's really hard to turn down a good food specially free ones but I'm cutting my portion and eventually I'll be eating less than I should. I'm targeting 140lbs. this month. How I wish!!!
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Monday, February 18, 2008
First saturday that Hon is miles away form me, I went to the gym for my work out. When I came back home my tito from the US payed a visit and invited us for a massage at a spa near ABS. My friends and I are scheduled to meet late at night at Makati but unfortunately for some reason it didn't push true. That's when I felt I'm alone I started missing hon. I really want to go out that night so I asked my HS friends if they could join me for coffee at Araneta. It was a lonely night for me but I know I can adjust.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Wake up early to jog around Araneta Center today and to buy flowers for my mom and Jhen. I bought 3 pcs of red roses for my mom and 1 dozen of yellow roses for Hon (why yellow? well I really don't know that it's stands for friendship all I planned is that red is to common so I want to make it different this time). I asked a friend of ours who also works on the same company as Hon a favor to put the flowers at her cube for my valentines surprise for her.
Our Valentines almost end up a nightmare again coz again I become impatient waiting for her. I was texting her a dozen times and I haven't gotten any reply fro her so I felt like clueless, will I stay at the Gym or go to her office. So when we met we we're bought speechless she knows I pissed. It's when we had our dinner when we started talking. We ate dinner at Texas Roadside Grill @ El Pueblo. The food is good but expensive but it's valentines so who cares?
I spent the night at her house coz she'll be leaving on Saturday for her work. We're about to sleep when she started crying I hug her and told her that I'm going to miss her. 6 months is no joke I really felt sad but it’s for her own good. She has a bright future ahead of her.
We woke up early coz she still needs to buy some stuff for her travel and we're going to meet her High School friends for dinner @ Trinoma. We bought a silver friendship band at the store and I requested a Nike pack from her as a valentine’s gift from me.
When we arrive home she starts preparing her stuff I slept for an hour because I'm going to drive her to the airport at 3 am in the morning her flight is at 6 am. When we we're at the airport I wanted to hug her but I felt awkward coz her mom is with us. We just kissed and said goodbye.
Friday, February 8, 2008
My Top 5 Female Athlete
#1 Maria Sharapova (Tennis)
#2 Ana Ivanovic (Tennis)
#3 Martina Hingis (Tennis)
#4 Michelle Wei (Golf)
#5 Gabbe dela Merced (Car Racer)
I Love Sneakers
Back in my teenage days I love sneakers so much especially basketball shoes and my favorite brand would be Nike or nothing. Everytime Nike releases a new shoe I made sure that, its's on my wish list to my dad. Unfortunately I forgot to collect them and most of them are in the trash already so I have search for the actual shoe color in the net. Me and my middle brother are the one's who love sneakers a lot the youngest doesn't. I plan to start collecting Nike sneakers again and this time I'm going to keep them.
Nike Shox BB (College Freshman) from dad
Jordan Trunner Scorch (3rd -4th college shoe) from dad
My First Shoe Jordan 6 (Grade 6) from my aunt.
Air Max Uptempo (HS Freshman) from Dad
Air Foamposite (2nd - 4th yr) from dad
Jordan 13 (My youngest brother's shoe)
Air Penny 4 (My middle brother's shoe)
Air Penny 4 (My middle brother's shoe)
Nike Shox BB (College Freshman) from dad
Air Jordan Low (My Middle Brother's Shoe)
Jordan Trunner Scorch (3rd -4th college shoe) from dad
Nike Free 5.0 from my pay check ;)
Nike Air Force 1 Low (from lolo)
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Nike Air Force 1 Low (My Middle Brother's Shoe)
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
I'm back to fitness first again but this time it's just for 4 months and this time I promise to myself that I'm going to make the most out of it. I got a lot of plans this year for myself I already started running & lifting weights and my next plan would be to play tennis. I really wanted to try tennis since college but the problem is it can't be played alone unless your going to face the wall. My freinds are not interested in the sport and looking for a partner is really hard but I'm decided to play it even if I have to pay for a hitting buddy. I'm just waiting for my tennis shoes and racket which will be provided by tito D and Ate L. I also planned to swim every sunday.
If everything goes as plan my activities would be schedule like this
Monday: Jogging & Weight Training
Tuesday: Jogging & Weight Training
Wednesday: Jogging & Tennis
Thursday: Jogging & Weight Training
Friday: Jogging & Weight Training
Saturday: Tennis
Sunday: Swimming / Tennis
I'll commit myself to physical fitness! Hehehe!
If everything goes as plan my activities would be schedule like this
Monday: Jogging & Weight Training
Tuesday: Jogging & Weight Training
Wednesday: Jogging & Tennis
Thursday: Jogging & Weight Training
Friday: Jogging & Weight Training
Saturday: Tennis
Sunday: Swimming / Tennis
I'll commit myself to physical fitness! Hehehe!
Friday, February 1, 2008
New Year Resolution (Revisited)
Well it's been a month now and I want to revisit my resolution for this year so let see if I've accomplished some of it
* I'm going to lose 30 lbs. this year - FROM 160lbs to 153lbs damn! im on the right track!
* I'm going to run - 4x a week every morning before going to work!
* I'll be patient - 10% improvement so far
* I'll be honest. no more lies - ...
* I'll finish my debt and start saving - if it wasn't for my car I could have paid half of it!
* I'm going to be a defensive driver - ...
* I'll stop being stubborn - ...
* I'm going to lose 30 lbs. this year - FROM 160lbs to 153lbs damn! im on the right track!
* I'm going to run - 4x a week every morning before going to work!
* I'll be patient - 10% improvement so far
* I'll be honest. no more lies - ...
* I'll finish my debt and start saving - if it wasn't for my car I could have paid half of it!
* I'm going to be a defensive driver - ...
* I'll stop being stubborn - ...
Monday, January 28, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Rating my bday from 1 to 10 (1 being the lowest) I'll give it a 6, it went well but not as I planned it to be. It could be the last time that I'll be spending it at home and with two sets of friends under one place. I really don't feel like sharing it here but don't get the idea that I didn't enjoy. Remember, I gave it a 6.
26th of January didn't really work out for me, I spent 1600 for my car aircon repair but bad luck seems coming my way, I have to return it maybe next week for the mechanic to check what's really wrong, probably condenser problem or whatever. I'm more worried about the expenses. I'm so fucked up! I really didn't expect having a car will cost me this much!
26th of January didn't really work out for me, I spent 1600 for my car aircon repair but bad luck seems coming my way, I have to return it maybe next week for the mechanic to check what's really wrong, probably condenser problem or whatever. I'm more worried about the expenses. I'm so fucked up! I really didn't expect having a car will cost me this much!
Friday, January 25, 2008
I LOVE YOU
I fell in love with you
It was like a dream come true
You chased away my pain & sadness
And replaced it with joy & happiness
I want you to know my love is true
I will forever and always cherish you
We've shared many first times
And we'll have many more to come
I promise I'll never leave
'Cuz you make my life complete
I'm so crazy about you
I don't know what to do
Everytime I look into your eyes
I see a love that never ends
They shine like the stars in the moonlit sky
Shine on me so beautiful and so bright
They're like beams of light
That light up my dark and lonely night
I love everything you say and do
'Cuz who I love... is you
I just want you to know I love you
And nobody will ever love you like I do
I don't care what people say
'Cuz I'm gonna love you anyway
It was like a dream come true
You chased away my pain & sadness
And replaced it with joy & happiness
I want you to know my love is true
I will forever and always cherish you
We've shared many first times
And we'll have many more to come
I promise I'll never leave
'Cuz you make my life complete
I'm so crazy about you
I don't know what to do
Everytime I look into your eyes
I see a love that never ends
They shine like the stars in the moonlit sky
Shine on me so beautiful and so bright
They're like beams of light
That light up my dark and lonely night
I love everything you say and do
'Cuz who I love... is you
I just want you to know I love you
And nobody will ever love you like I do
I don't care what people say
'Cuz I'm gonna love you anyway
Early gifts from my officemates, thanks guys! I never taught that planning a birthday party will be to much of a pressure to me, well it's my 25th birthday and I want to spend it with a bang but unfortunately I ain't got dough. I received 50 from my dad but the way dollars is slumping... If it wasn't from my cc debts and my driving accidents (more of a stupidity) I'll be living lavida loca.
I'm supposed to held it on my crib but unfortunately my mom told me she can't cook for some reason, so I told her it's ok I'll just celebrate it somewhere, so I asked a few friends if they know a place somewhere in timog or eastwood that is cheaper. I was still undecided on where will I be spending it then I received I text message from my mom and she told me that she'll prepare foods for my birthday. Whew! mga nanay talaga hindi matiis ang mga anak. So problem solved I'll be spending it on my crib.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
BIRTHDAY BOY!
5 days to go before my much awaited Silver Anniversary of longevity on earth. I can't believe that I'm 25 right now I still feel like I just turn 21. If i was just not 40 lbs overweight right now I would look like a fresh grad... honest! There was a meeting at the office and a lady told me that I look just like a kid among them. I was really flattered. Anyway it's going to my birthday on the 26th and I have to have some sort of a birthday wish list.
in random order...
Havaianas "Cartunista" size 41/42 - i like the white one or the green one
Designer Whey Protien Powder - (Chocolate Flavor)
Girbaud wallet
Car Mat
I probably be the one to buy some of it... but it would be much appreciated if I can get it as gifts.
... GO..GO..GO shorty it's my birthday and I'm gonna party coz it's my birthday!!! And I don't give a damn coz it's my birthday!!!
in random order...
Havaianas "Cartunista" size 41/42 - i like the white one or the green one
Designer Whey Protien Powder - (Chocolate Flavor)
Tuesday With Morrie, 5 People You Meet in Heaven, For One More Day by Mitch Albom
("Must have! this 3 books cost less than a thousand pesos ;)"
- My Friends @ CDI promises to give me all 3... YEEESSS!!!
Being Happy by Andrew Matthews
Slim Fit Polo Shirt
Nike Shirt
Billabong Board Shorts or the brown checkered shortsSlim Fit Polo Shirt
Nike Shirt
Girbaud wallet
Car Mat
I probably be the one to buy some of it... but it would be much appreciated if I can get it as gifts.
... GO..GO..GO shorty it's my birthday and I'm gonna party coz it's my birthday!!! And I don't give a damn coz it's my birthday!!!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
One More Chance (2nd Time Around)
"Hate That I Love You"
[Her:]
That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)
[Me:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did
[Her:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong
[Me:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you
[Her:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)
[Me:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh
[Her:]
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right
[Me:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
[Me:]
Yeaahhh... Oohh...
[Her:]
That's how much I love you (as much as I need you)
That's how much I need you (oooh..)
That's how much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you
[Her:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so.. so...
Well the song said it all.. Love rules it All!!!
[Her:]
That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)
[Me:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did
[Her:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong
[Me:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you
[Her:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)
[Me:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh
[Her:]
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right
[Me:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
[Me:]
Yeaahhh... Oohh...
[Her:]
That's how much I love you (as much as I need you)
That's how much I need you (oooh..)
That's how much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you
[Her:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so.. so...
Well the song said it all.. Love rules it All!!!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Friday, January 18, 2008
Why do I love you when you don’t love me?
And you, longing for me when I don’t
Are we destine to love like this?
At two separate times, At two separate worlds
Why can’t we go living on separate lives?
And allow time to lead us back to each others arms
Maybe someday you’ll find me between your hug
And me, finding you inside my heart
What if that decision is wrong?
And we aren’t really meant for each other
You, giving your life to him and
Me, fooling myself of loving her.
Why can’t I allow you to cry on my shoulders?
Why can’t you permit me to kiss your lips as passionately as I can?
Why do we keep on dancing this stupid dance over and over?
Why? Please tell me why?
And you, longing for me when I don’t
Are we destine to love like this?
At two separate times, At two separate worlds
Why can’t we go living on separate lives?
And allow time to lead us back to each others arms
Maybe someday you’ll find me between your hug
And me, finding you inside my heart
What if that decision is wrong?
And we aren’t really meant for each other
You, giving your life to him and
Me, fooling myself of loving her.
Why can’t I allow you to cry on my shoulders?
Why can’t you permit me to kiss your lips as passionately as I can?
Why do we keep on dancing this stupid dance over and over?
Why? Please tell me why?
Sunday, January 13, 2008
It's a rainy Saturday, but it didn't stop me from running. Woke up early put on my running shoes, do a little stretching then off I go. I'm not really on the idea of measuring how far I run but on the fact that I'm burning unwanted fats on my buddy. I decided that it's about time to be conscious again on my physical well being. I started to change my life style by eating less and cutting down on carbo. I stop eating rice, smoking and limiting my self to 3-4 bottles of beer a week and exercising 4 times a week. It's been a week now and I feel good about it. I think I've lost already 3 lbs. during that span of time. My goal for this month is to lose 10 lbs. my current weight today is 157 lbs. and my main goal is to achieve the 120lbs mark. so doing the math it will take me till the end of April hmmm... still got 1 month to flaunt my achievement and enjoy summer. TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!!!!!
Saturday is incomplete if your not going out to unwind and have some fun, it's a waste of time to spend the whole day at your house. Enough for the reason that your not outgoing and your resting from a 5-6 day work stop being a couch potato you have all day Sunday to do that. Money is not a problem you got your friends right go figure out how to spend your Saturday.
Last night JD, OC and me have a plan to play billiards at a pool house near our district. On our way to pick up OC we decided to drop at PM thinking he might be available, Luckily he's available. It's my first time at that pool house the place is not that nice but it's cheap. And what makes that place cooler is some of my classmates from high school hang out in there. So I got the chance to see them again after 8 years. It's like a mini reunion for the reason that all of us in there belongs in the same section in my sophomore year (Our Lady of Fatima a.k.a OLF) except PM and Boni. We still call each other by surname and monikers some are lucky coz they were called by their nick names unfortunately for me...
To give you an idea I'll try to name all of them with confidentiality...
BONI - (surname) same as Andres (the Hero) but we try to shortcut to make it cooler
FONDELUGA - (surname) we deleted the last 5 letters and replace it with LUGA... (use common sense on this)
PALIS - (surname) well that's his complete surname, sometime we call him WALIS coz it rhyme and DILAW for the reason that his teeth are all yellowish
TORRESS - (surname) he's a bully magnet back in HS.. We call him ABNOY coz he act and look like one. peace bro! you've improve in fairness.
SEDEño - (surname) we use to tease/call him BACKLA back in HS.
OC - we used to call him by his surname and sometimes BABA because its long...
JD and PM - Lucky ones coz we call them by their names.
And ME??? hahah go figure! Oh well... to give justice for the people here they call me ESPADODI or DODI... If you happen to know B1 and B2 "the 2 stupid sagings" in their sleepwear you'll get the idea. Freshmen to Senior year I was called that way. Hahahaha! but it's all good I rarely see them and my barkada calls me J just the way I like it simple.
... Like my ex offismate says CHILAX! (chill and relax)
Saturday is incomplete if your not going out to unwind and have some fun, it's a waste of time to spend the whole day at your house. Enough for the reason that your not outgoing and your resting from a 5-6 day work stop being a couch potato you have all day Sunday to do that. Money is not a problem you got your friends right go figure out how to spend your Saturday.
Last night JD, OC and me have a plan to play billiards at a pool house near our district. On our way to pick up OC we decided to drop at PM thinking he might be available, Luckily he's available. It's my first time at that pool house the place is not that nice but it's cheap. And what makes that place cooler is some of my classmates from high school hang out in there. So I got the chance to see them again after 8 years. It's like a mini reunion for the reason that all of us in there belongs in the same section in my sophomore year (Our Lady of Fatima a.k.a OLF) except PM and Boni. We still call each other by surname and monikers some are lucky coz they were called by their nick names unfortunately for me...
To give you an idea I'll try to name all of them with confidentiality...
BONI - (surname) same as Andres (the Hero) but we try to shortcut to make it cooler
FONDELUGA - (surname) we deleted the last 5 letters and replace it with LUGA... (use common sense on this)
PALIS - (surname) well that's his complete surname, sometime we call him WALIS coz it rhyme and DILAW for the reason that his teeth are all yellowish
TORRESS - (surname) he's a bully magnet back in HS.. We call him ABNOY coz he act and look like one. peace bro! you've improve in fairness.
SEDEño - (surname) we use to tease/call him BACKLA back in HS.
OC - we used to call him by his surname and sometimes BABA because its long...
JD and PM - Lucky ones coz we call them by their names.
And ME??? hahah go figure! Oh well... to give justice for the people here they call me ESPADODI or DODI... If you happen to know B1 and B2 "the 2 stupid sagings" in their sleepwear you'll get the idea. Freshmen to Senior year I was called that way. Hahahaha! but it's all good I rarely see them and my barkada calls me J just the way I like it simple.
... Like my ex offismate says CHILAX! (chill and relax)
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
Heartbreaker 101
A friend of mine sent me an email that might help me cope up on what I'm going thru right now. The email is regarding how to move on after breaking someones heart. I feel the erg of posting the article here it might also help someone who's with the same situation with me.
See my comments (Italics) ;)
Given the choice, most people say they would much rather break up with someone than get broken up with. But if you've recently initiated a breakup, you know how tough it can be.
Just because you summoned the courage to end your dead-end relationship doesn't mean you're not feeling a little heartache yourself (or experiencing some guilt for causing your ex heartache). But fear not, my brave friend. You are not alone. Following are some do's and don'ts that should make moving on that much easier.
Don't: Call, email, text or visit your ex in a moment of weakness
"Even though you brought on the breakup, there may still be times when you miss your ex.
Even though you brought on the breakup, there may still be times when you miss your ex." A song might come on the radio that reminds you of them. Something funny will happen and you'll want to share it. Or maybe you're just having a bad day and want to reach out and reconnect.
STOP RIGHT THERE. Missing your ex is one thing. Contacting your ex is a no-no. In fact, reconnecting with your ex is the absolute worst thing you can do right now. So before you have that moment of weakness, remove your ex's number from your cell phone, delete their email address, and take them off your social networking contacts. (Right now.)
Do: Ask friends for help
Because you initiated the breakup, your friends may not know that you're hurting. But if you are, it's important to ask for help, a.k.a. recruit your Boo-Hoo Crew. You'll want to choose a least three friends who know you well enough to know when you need comfort versus when you need a kick in the pants.
Your Boo-Hoo Crew should always know (and be able to remind you) why your ex wasn't good for you
Your Boo-Hoo Crew should always know (and be able to remind you) why your ex wasn't good for you then, and why they're definitely not worth pining over now.
Don't: Second-guess your decision
After a breakup, it's all too easy to second-guess yourself and your choices. Did I do the right thing? Should I have given him/her another chance? Maybe there was more I could do to make it work... The truth is, you can make yourself crazy second-guessing your decision. But what's done is done. You had your reasons, made your decision, and now it's time to accept and move on.
Do: See your breakup for what it really is
You may not know it right now, but in ending your relationship with the wrong person, you're paving the way to meet the right one. Chances are good that you won't meet Mr. or Ms. Right overnight, but that doesn't mean the breakup was a bad decision.
By walking away from that wrong relationship, you're headed towards a life that's more honest and authentic for you.
By walking away from that wrong relationship, you're headed towards a life that's more honest and authentic for you. What better way to eventually attract your perfect partner than by living and loving your own life?
Don't: Badmouth your ex
In the aftermath of a breakup it's all too easy to badmouth your ex, spilling their dirty little secrets to anyone who will listen. Don't do it. Badmouthing your ex may feel good momentarily, but the fallout from those harmless snarky comments can be detrimental to your healing process, not to mention your dating future. Breakup karma is a bitch you don't want coming after you, so zip the lip and move on with dignity.
See my comments (Italics) ;)
How to Heal and Move On After Breaking Someones Heart
Just because you summoned the courage to end your dead-end relationship doesn't mean you're not feeling a little heartache yourself (or experiencing some guilt for causing your ex heartache). But fear not, my brave friend. You are not alone. Following are some do's and don'ts that should make moving on that much easier.
Don't: Call, email, text or visit your ex in a moment of weakness
"Even though you brought on the breakup, there may still be times when you miss your ex.
Even though you brought on the breakup, there may still be times when you miss your ex." A song might come on the radio that reminds you of them. Something funny will happen and you'll want to share it. Or maybe you're just having a bad day and want to reach out and reconnect.
STOP RIGHT THERE. Missing your ex is one thing. Contacting your ex is a no-no. In fact, reconnecting with your ex is the absolute worst thing you can do right now. So before you have that moment of weakness, remove your ex's number from your cell phone, delete their email address, and take them off your social networking contacts. (Right now.)
My say: Error #1 I reconnect with her specially times when I felt alone... I knew someone who didn't delete his ex number but destroy her sim card... well I think it's the right thing to do but it's been my number for 4-5 years now.
Do: Ask friends for help
Because you initiated the breakup, your friends may not know that you're hurting. But if you are, it's important to ask for help, a.k.a. recruit your Boo-Hoo Crew. You'll want to choose a least three friends who know you well enough to know when you need comfort versus when you need a kick in the pants.
Your Boo-Hoo Crew should always know (and be able to remind you) why your ex wasn't good for you
Your Boo-Hoo Crew should always know (and be able to remind you) why your ex wasn't good for you then, and why they're definitely not worth pining over now.
My Say: I got 3 set of friends, Our friends which couldn't be bias, they are basically neutral when it comes to us. My high school friends which i can't understand sometimes they felt sorry for the 6 years lost. Since they are all boys and pros when it comes to the cheating side they told me that why do I need to break up with her "if pwede namang tumakas" I'm not really that type I couldn't lie no more to her I don't want to pile up sins after sins after sins... it's just not me. And my friendly friends they are the potential Boo-Hoo Crew which I usually share my love stories with...
Don't: Second-guess your decision
After a breakup, it's all too easy to second-guess yourself and your choices. Did I do the right thing? Should I have given him/her another chance? Maybe there was more I could do to make it work... The truth is, you can make yourself crazy second-guessing your decision. But what's done is done. You had your reasons, made your decision, and now it's time to accept and move on.
My Say: Why am I so fickle?... I made the decision I should stick to it right? And what so ironic about it is I used to listen to the song WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN - "I’m ready this time I know that I’m No longer undecided Don’t wanna be a fool wondering What might have been" Maybe I should read lesson #1 again and again till my brain gets numb.
Do: See your breakup for what it really is
You may not know it right now, but in ending your relationship with the wrong person, you're paving the way to meet the right one. Chances are good that you won't meet Mr. or Ms. Right overnight, but that doesn't mean the breakup was a bad decision.
By walking away from that wrong relationship, you're headed towards a life that's more honest and authentic for you.
By walking away from that wrong relationship, you're headed towards a life that's more honest and authentic for you. What better way to eventually attract your perfect partner than by living and loving your own life?
My Say: This is my favorite part. "Attracting someone by living and loving myself" Yes! I've been hiding inside myself lately, the next time I love no more lies, no more pretending.. I'm not gonna let someone stop me from doing what I want again for some selfish reasons and I'm gonna make sure she'll trust me 101%.
Don't: Badmouth your ex
In the aftermath of a breakup it's all too easy to badmouth your ex, spilling their dirty little secrets to anyone who will listen. Don't do it. Badmouthing your ex may feel good momentarily, but the fallout from those harmless snarky comments can be detrimental to your healing process, not to mention your dating future. Breakup karma is a bitch you don't want coming after you, so zip the lip and move on with dignity.
My Say: What I'm telling my friends are true, though majority of it is on my side but I make sure that my ex wouldn't look bad to them. I always say to them that I there is always sides on every story. It's just my side their listening into but maybe my ex side is much more rational than mine... It's the matter of who's side are you...
Do: Become a breakup rock star
And speaking of moving on, did you know that you can not only survive your breakup but actually thrive? By applying the lessons you learned from your last relationship, and refining what you want out of life and eventually from your perfect partner, you have the chance to reclaim yourself and become the ultimate breakup rock star. So go ahead, rock on!
And speaking of moving on, did you know that you can not only survive your breakup but actually thrive? By applying the lessons you learned from your last relationship, and refining what you want out of life and eventually from your perfect partner, you have the chance to reclaim yourself and become the ultimate breakup rock star. So go ahead, rock on!
My say: LET'S ROCK & ROLL!!!
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Check your Feng Shui Horoscope for 2008
I got this chain email from a friend about a spreadsheet generated crap telling you about your self and what's going to be your future this year. Well I have nothing to lose anyway and besides it's just for fun.
It order me to put my name, fav color, fave number, etc...
After that I got a result...
"Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back. You have a lot of love and friendships in your life. The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected. You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it."
It order me to put my name, fav color, fave number, etc...
After that I got a result...
"Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back. You have a lot of love and friendships in your life. The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected. You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it."
"15", This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.
You like adventure. You are spontaneous and like to please people
My Soul is relaxed and laid back - being a happy-go-lucky care free person, yes i can say so
Lot's of love and friends - lot of love? maybe... family, relatives.. friends? yah I got a lot and so happy with them and I'm planning to make new ones this year.
Year will go very well - I'll leave it to God on this one.
Fall in love with someone unexpected - hmmm... who could that be? let's just wait and see...
Anonymous Friend - I will have? so that means he/she will soon exist in my life. I hope it's a lady friend
"15" - Good thing my favorite number is not 1.. hahahah
Adventure - i like adventure but not those extreme ones
Spontaneous - lately I've notice that i'm becoming impulsive it started after the break-up
Pleasing People - uha, I think that's what I'm good at... sometimes they misunderstood me as a flirt, I just like being around with people specially close ones.
Then after that I have to send it to 5 people in order for my wish to come true... hmmm... so i send it to 10 people to be sure and crossing my fingers on it.
.... I wanna meet my Miss Anonymous
Sunday, January 6, 2008
"Starbucks westlife after a late night gimik"
Me: what are you thinking right now? ayaw mo pa ba?
Her: Ayaw kong pag usapan yan.
Me: how about on my birthday?
Her: ... (little shook from her head)
Me: So kelan? pag balik mo?
Her: OO ...
Me:. ... (can't think of anything good to say)
......::: DEAD AIR :::......
Her: Let's go I'm sleepy na..
Me: what are you thinking right now? ayaw mo pa ba?
Her: Ayaw kong pag usapan yan.
Me: how about on my birthday?
Her: ... (little shook from her head)
Me: So kelan? pag balik mo?
Her: OO ...
Me:. ... (can't think of anything good to say)
......::: DEAD AIR :::......
Her: Let's go I'm sleepy na..
Friday, January 4, 2008
Last night me and JD paid a visit to an old friend we stay there till 2 am talking about old issues and stuffs. He has two kids a boy and a girl and seems like he's coping up well for an undergrad, Her wife has no work and seems like their still dependent on their parents. Then on a spurt of a moment I spit out something... I told them that I wanted to get married, I wanted to take my life to the next level at that time I feel like that I can have a family of my own. I wasn't thinking of having a kid, it will come. I just want to have someone permanent in my life. Somehow I felt envious about my married friends.
The big question is... to whom? with hon? I broke up with my hon, for the reason that I want to break free from the leash then I wanted to get married... so erratic of me. The answer would be yes with hon, I want to marry her, 6 years and 4 months is not a joke I would never have another long relationship like that. Some people say time is not an issue, probably yes... but still we know each other so well and we're comfortable with each other.
Actually we talk about it before and we used to dream about it, I told her 27 would be the age for me to ask her the "big question". If I have the money right now damn I'll be proposing to her right now even though we're still not ok, but I'm flat broke I'm thinking of selling my car but decided not to, My friends told me it's not a problem we can have a CIVIL wedding and burn less than 50k for it but that's not my dream, that's not our dream. I planned to have a grand wedding it's a once in a lifetime event and I want it to make it very... very... special. I'm thinking of a 300k budget but 2 years from now it may go up to 500k. I'm just an average guy maybe to some people it's just a little. How can I raise that kind of money in 2 years? I'm not planning to loan, never. I don't want to hear people specially my mom nagging about it. And hon has no plans of splitting it between us. She wants me to spend it all.
The big question is... to whom? with hon? I broke up with my hon, for the reason that I want to break free from the leash then I wanted to get married... so erratic of me. The answer would be yes with hon, I want to marry her, 6 years and 4 months is not a joke I would never have another long relationship like that. Some people say time is not an issue, probably yes... but still we know each other so well and we're comfortable with each other.
Actually we talk about it before and we used to dream about it, I told her 27 would be the age for me to ask her the "big question". If I have the money right now damn I'll be proposing to her right now even though we're still not ok, but I'm flat broke I'm thinking of selling my car but decided not to, My friends told me it's not a problem we can have a CIVIL wedding and burn less than 50k for it but that's not my dream, that's not our dream. I planned to have a grand wedding it's a once in a lifetime event and I want it to make it very... very... special. I'm thinking of a 300k budget but 2 years from now it may go up to 500k. I'm just an average guy maybe to some people it's just a little. How can I raise that kind of money in 2 years? I'm not planning to loan, never. I don't want to hear people specially my mom nagging about it. And hon has no plans of splitting it between us. She wants me to spend it all.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Back to reality again, back again to my routine of house - work - house. I was out for 10 days and I didn't expect that nobody will mind cleaning my work table. My cube was dusty and I have no choice but to clean it, well it's a good start. I got tons of task to do, task that I don't bother doing last month due to my anticipation of my long vacation. Now no more reasons to be stubborn, to be in no mood to work it's going to be work mode all the way till summer.
About my vacation it was great a time well spent with my family and specially my friends. We went out a lot dinner, drinking... I got two set of friends my high school and my college friends my C friends are the more consistent ones we used to see each other 2x / 3x a month they are the solid ones we've been together for 7 years now and still going where we wanted it to be... "Strong". Me and my HS friends don't bond a lot ever since we went to college. We're all boys and they all got issues. Everybody has their own alibis whenever we planned to have a get together. J and R are the only consistent ones. The 3 of us are usually together since R is my neighbor and J is about a few km away from us. But it's all good.
... This is my month, this is my year!
About my vacation it was great a time well spent with my family and specially my friends. We went out a lot dinner, drinking... I got two set of friends my high school and my college friends my C friends are the more consistent ones we used to see each other 2x / 3x a month they are the solid ones we've been together for 7 years now and still going where we wanted it to be... "Strong". Me and my HS friends don't bond a lot ever since we went to college. We're all boys and they all got issues. Everybody has their own alibis whenever we planned to have a get together. J and R are the only consistent ones. The 3 of us are usually together since R is my neighbor and J is about a few km away from us. But it's all good.
... This is my month, this is my year!
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