I was thinking about a relative of mine lately, on what she's going thru right now. She got pregnant by her boyfriend whom she doesn't love, so it's an accident all right. We're both on the same age and probably think the same way but what happened? I really wanted to ask her why did she let that happen? Why didn't they practice safe sex? Did her bf don't like the idea of putting rubber or both of them? or it was just pure lust? Well having a baby today is suicide if you're not prepared well I'm not against it I too also like to have a baby girl but when I'm ready. It's not like the old days, the time of our parents on which average couple can have 3 to 5 sibling and can afford to raise them. Sometimes I wonder how my parents was able to do that. Definitely not this time.

The last time I saw her was on our way back to Manila from Singapore we're on the same flight she looked stressed physically and emotionally. You can tell that she was really having a hard time. I heard from my mom that she was avoiding her bf, for the reason that she doesn't love him. I felt that she wasn't really using her brain, ok you don't love the guy but at least let him do his responsibility as the father, it's really hard to raise a kid alone but still she decided not too.

That's not all her mother disgrace her for some selfish reasons. Ok, I got her point that her daughter one day arrive home pregnant to someone who she haven't met at all but she's your daughter for Christ's sake you just can't turn your back at her at least show concern. If there's one person she needed right now it's definitely her mom but her mom is the one causing her too much stress and pain. Imagine her mom want to send her to us for the reason that she's worried about her neighbors spreading gossip all over town and might reach their church, she's a born again christian by the way, so she's scared of the fact that what other people might tell against her. For all I care you can talk shit behind my back, make up stories about me, tease me about my physical appearance I DON'T GIVE A DAMN! because their not the one whose feeding me definitely they can't stop me from doing what I want not a chance. One thing I just can't tolerate is when they started to get physical that's a no! no! because definitely I'll fight back .

Back to my aunt, she wants to hide my cousin until the baby is born. My mom doesn't agree about it and so is everyone else. I understand my mom It'll be added obligation for her if my cousin lives with us she already got a lot of things to prioritize and the fact is my aunt is capable of taking care of her own daughter but my mom told me that my aunt doesn't listen and doesn't care about it so she told me just let it be. I felt bad about my cousin and her baby on what they're going thru right now. I also felt bad about my aunt being selfish come to think of it she's active in their church. She remind me of the song with the lyrics "Banal na Aso!, Santong Kabayo!... Natatawa ako Hi.. hi.. hi.. hi.. SAYO!!!!!.